Not so bad

It's amazing how time really does change a person. I remember thinking how life was absolutely unbearable at this point last year and I could not imagine moving on without the "love of my life". Well, here we are 18 months later and I cannot imagine my life being any different right now. I have adjusted to the single life quite well...Not to say that I cannot see myself getting married again or having another little one later on, but I am content where I am today. Life is good. My new addiction is one that I can control, it's called the gym and as long as I can I will continue to love going there. I have dated a little bit over the last 6 months, but it is not easy out there and at this point, I am ready to focus on making myself happy and not anyone else. The next few years should be good for me and I look forward to what it will bring. A year ago, I could not say those words. Time does heal and brings lots of change in the process.

Until later...

Been a while

So its been a while since I have blogged. I guess time does heal or wounds, or at least the thought of time passing by to forget someone, and the daily routine of getting use to being on your own. While it has not been easy, its getting better. My question is -  who does not want to be in love? I think there are people out there that look to "play" with girls or vice versa, but when you go home, don't you feel empty? Or is that ok? It could be, I dont know, but gosh that would take some getting use to. I guess I kind of understand the changes in the thoughts of love throughout your life, but can we or should we truly be in love? When you are in your teens, its called "puppy love", when you are in your twenties its called "experimenting" when you in your thirties, what the hell is it called? With another bday coming upon me in a few days, I wonder, will the right "love" come during my autumn years??? I guess we have a few years before that happens, so I will take my thirties as "LOVE, lesson learned" years...


Until Later -
Da Liggity Lope 

Royal Happiness

It was something to see the joy of the Prince and Kate. It took me back a few years ago, when I saw my beautiful wife walking down the isle has we celebrated our 3 year relationship with vows that we would be together forever in front of friends and family. I knew that this second leap of faith will be the one that would last forever...well, Royal happiness is still a fictional story. I wish many times that I could go back to the wonderful day where my wife looks into my eyes and say, "I promise to be there through sickness and health...until death do us part." I would never want to see my wife die as I do not want to die, but with all of these marriage failures, where are all the dead people??? Anyway, I hope William and Kate show us what a marriage is suppose to be and that finally our society will see that is it possible to love someone forever, not be "in love" all the time, but love your husband or wife forever until death do you part. Hell, Casey and Irma are trying to work things out again...

"Forever hold your piece"

Ever wonder why no one ever says anything, you know there has to be people that are saying to themselves, "if they only knew what they were doing". But 50% of the time you were wrong by keeping your mouth shut, so in my case 100%. I am not sure if anyone at my last wedding thought that my marriage to Astrid would come to an end and it would have been difficult for anyone to say "NO! Ralph, in 3 years you will be divorced!" I was happy with the most amazing women in my eyes (heck I was happy just 6 months ago) and how could anyone at my wedding say, I OBJECT! But gosh would it have hurt as much then as it does now. It would have been embarrassing for someone to say something and the odds should have been in my favor that this would have lasted forever. What ever happened to all of those words being said in front of God and family members, what happened to commitment, what happened to until death do us part? I guess it died with 50% of the marriages in this country. Anyway, next time your at a wedding and that question comes up "Please speak now or forever hold your piece" think about that fact that what you don't say might have the everlasting effect not the marriage.

Celebration

What a great day for my nieces, they officially become 1 year old tomorrow, but today was their celebration with family and friends. It was weird to do a celebration without Astrid, but I guess each celebration will get easier and as the days continue to get easier I will be better about what is next to come. My little princesses are beautiful and big and while I wanted to start the process of having a prince or princess of my own, being able to celebrate with my nieces has fulfilled the need to have a baby close to me. It is nice to see Casey with his daughter and sharing the fatherly love that he needs to share with her. I think all in all, my family is getting use to seeing me without my companion and it will get easier and better as each 24 hours come and go. Until later.

Up late on the east coast

Watching Bigger, Stronger, Faster with my brother in DC. A year ago today. I was laying down with my beautiful wife enjoying the married life, now I am sitting with my brother who is about to go through a divorce too. Damn this world is so cruel. Where are the great women in this world? I thought I had found mine until Dec 1st when she moved out and Jan 4th when she filed for divorce. I am starting to think people move to St. Louis to get divorced!

Good Night -
Ralph

Hello World, enjoy the ride

Wow, for years I have wondered how much fun it would be to tell my story and ohhh boy it has been a ride. My sister thought it would be a good idea to start blogging the interesting things going on in my young life. So I guess hopefully you all enjoy the ride it can be smooth and bumpy, so if you like roller coaster you will enjoy following my adventures (I guess that is what I will call it).

Ralph